Life really is about lessons. As I sit here in my office, I find myself asking several questions. First, what lesson am I to learn today as a result of another defeat? Secondly, where will that wisdom take me? I am sure you have heard the old story about the man and the flood. Where God had sent him several opportunities to be saved from drowning, and every time he denied them, saying: “No thank you, God will save me.” And after he drowned he asked why didn’t you come to save me God?….”
This is just as it should be. The messages we receive are not always as clear as we would like to think. I know I have been denying many message over the past several months and I am now drowning in my own self-pity. I gave my heart to an amazing experience over the last year and it has come to my attention that I can no longer give this person that kind of energy, in other words I can’t love her as I dreamed. I have been battling this fight between my feelings of passion and love and the reality of her ability to receive such. I did not want to see, that what I was giving was truly not serving her. I still don’t understand, but it is not important to understand. What is important is to look at this as a learning experience and never never close my heart off. When you are open and listen to your heart it is amazing what shows up.
I just happened to turn on facebook just moments before writing today and here are three posts a good friend of mine had shared. “A Lesson will repeat itself until learned.” (Awareness). The second one I saw was this: “I’m proud of my heart. It’s been played, stabbed, cheated, burned and broken, but somehow it still works.” This came from Michael Fiore. I am not sure if these are his own or not. And the last one which prompted me to change my course of topic and message for the day was this: written by Jennifer Gayle that Nancy posted “When you open your heart you give love a chance to flow in.” If I were to not allow myself to give as I gave, the true recipient of this love would never receive it. I must continue to give as I have never given before. I know there is someone out there in this Universe who is waiting for me to arrive. The lesson is this: that each and every one of us must walk our path, even if it means we get knocked down. We must walk that path and journey with all the passion and vigor, as we did when it was still a dream.
I have a morning ritual where I read from my favorite poet Mark Nepo and then journal my gratitude’s and intentions for the day. Today, Mark’s piece is again very fitting for the place I find myself. “The Book of Awakening: September 25, 2012”. This profound piece exemplifies the push pull that take place with the human condition every day. I would hope that transparency and authenticity will stand strong and we can allow those places in our hearts and minds to heal and grow into much better human beings.
I truly believe we have a space in our spirit that is waiting for evolution. We are moving toward a greater sense of our own awareness. I have been following the likes of Andrew Cohen, Genpo Roshi, Terry Patton, Ken Wilber, Barbara Marx Hubbard, and Diane Hamilton to name a few. The collective vision is that we are moving to a greater understanding of the human potential, that man is on the cusp of a new era of consciousness. I believe the lessons we learn now will guide us through the transitions that are coming to each and every one of us. If I accept each and every experience as a joyous learning journey, I grow as an authentic, transparent man. I just ask each and every one of you to look into your heart and ask a very simple question: What part do you play in the evolution of man? What can you do to improve the life of someone close to you? Not every painful situation in life is permanent, but it is presented to us to teach us something. I would ask you to look at your painful situations and ask yourself, what are you to learn from them?
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